I feel like I’ve developed Social Anxiety. I used to go out with friends a lot and have a lot of fun but I’d always get called out on really stupid things I’ve said or done. Lately, as I think about things, I’ve realized how fearful I’ve become about saying things without being judged about them. I don’t really know how this will potential end, I don’t even know if this is even going to end. Hell, I don’t even know if I actually have social anxiety or if it’s just something born of late that could potentially just a phase… all I want to know is if it’s good or if it’s bad that I’m getting used to the feeling…
You are yourself. There are things that we can’t control like whose family we are born into, where life will take us, when we will die but there’s one thing I’m sure off. Everyone has a mask. Whether that mask be a deceitful one, a genuine mask or maybe something different.
Who are you? I know that some people are actually scared to show off their true personality, some people have don’t have a hard time showing off who they “really” are. That mask is the sole thing that protects you from those who don’t like you. They don’t know the true you, they only know what you show them.
That mask is something that you can pull out any time before meeting someone new, you may not even show them who’s really behind that mask that you’re so good at putting on. They don’t need to see the real you, you keep it hidden so no one can judge you.
Who is behind that mask that yu show to the rest of the world? Are you sure that’s really.. you?
trying is a pain in the ass to do. Honestly I’ve given up on trying to do this I like. I mean sure you have the benefit of knowing you’re tried something and now have experience in that something you’ve just done. it’s never really worked out for me and that’s why I’ve stopped trying. people say that you have to try hard in school but in reality, once school is over, you’re going to be stuck in the hell we all call adulthood knowing that you’ll be working your ass off for the rest of your life. Trying things is great and all but it’s not for everyone. Sure you should try in school but where is that going to get you when 60? 70? 80? in my opinion you may try hard for things and may want to try different thing but what’s the point when life is going to crush you down anyways?
Emotion is a wonderful thing don’t you think? Being happy, sad, depressed, ecstatic, excited. All emotions are great in my opinion. Whenever I watch something that I find to be really sad, I always get emotional to the point where I just ponder over it for a while. it’s quite something don’t you think? Having the ability to contemplate on your emotions. I mean I get really emotional every Tuesday knowing it’s 2 toonie tuesday at KFC. it’s the best thing! Just some food for thought.
Let’s face it, getting sick is really annoying and really great. it’s great because you miss school and you get to order that steaming hot chicken noodle soup from your local Tim Hortons. it sucks because you do miss school which makes you miss assignments which makes you miss shit which screws you over one way or the other. There’s also the fact that you might be sick for a while and that kills you via not being able to go to school which then slowly kills your grades. The one thing to remember here is, sick or not, Tim Hortons chicken noodle soup is really good.
Love is painful thing. Many people fall in love all the time, I for am, have fallen in love before, hell I still am. I don’t really know what to do sometimes, but I just keep on making jabs and playing the TF2 dating sim. I mean let me assure you, I love many things. Girls, My parents and the most important of all, Tatter tots. Tatter tots are like Jesus but potato tot form. They’re so good especially in the morning when you eat them. Holy crap, tatter tots are so fucking good. If you’re going to love something, love tatter tots. Just food for thought.
school is a place to learn. It’s also a place of which massive boredom occurs. Classrooms are hell, teachers are boring (sometimes) but there’s always some fun in school. Lunch time is where friends chill, and the cafeteria is where the food is at. DONT EAT CAFETERIA FOOD. I mean there’s nothing wrong with it but like I wouldn’t eat it. The real food is when you go to the local mall and embrace yourself in the food court that the mall provides. Just food for thought.
I think patience is a necessity to have in a lifetime. I can’t speak that much about patience because to be honest, I’m still on the verge of heightening my patience bar. Sometimes there are things that take way to long though. Like the damn Starbucks line in every starbucks coffee shop ever. I swear by the ime I get to the cashier, 20 years would have past by. But patience is a good thing to have. Being patient has it’s advantages, like waiting in front on the apple store because the new “iPhone Whatever had just been teased to come out and you’re there 7 months early” You know, that kind of stuff.
Faith is an amazing thing to have. Whether it’s having faith in someone or having Christian faith, it’s an amazing thing. Faith is one of those things that will never be forgotten. People whether in a good or bad situation will always have faith. I mean I have faith that I’ll be buying food later on today. Just keep believing and having faith in yourself, in others, in God and in the choice of food you make at a local malls food court.
Work is a cruel thing, whether it may be doing school work to actually working on a job that pays minimum wage per hour. Work can be hard but it has its upsides. Work can pay off in the end, that’s why they always say work hard. By working hard you’re giving the option to yourself that you’re not some lazy ass sitting on a couch watching Barney or whatever there is to watch on tv. If you have an actual Job then work can provide money, sure you have to work really hard but you still get money. Do you also know what you can do with that money, go to a sushi place and get a shitload of California roles and whatever type of sushi you’re interested in.